i have come to the conclusion that i watch far too much T.V. it consumes my life. and it scares me. but its not just me it happins to so i wont worry too much

Anyway i still fell really busy all the time. even though i dont do that much. i think that im just not use to not really having time alone anymore. im not complaining its just different. i got really bad news today, a child hood friend killed him self over the weekend. im not sure if any of you knew him but he was cool. he was chris hogan. i mainly hung out with him in elementry school and jr high, you see he was older. me,brett cody and jon wittock were with him all the time. i cant count the street hockey and team chaise games we played. his family was so nice. it is such a shame. the poor guy was teased and tormented all his life. wether it be for being skinny , or having having glasses, or being kinda smart. no,dont know if this is the reason behind what has happened. but it searteny didnt help this guy life the happy life we all have the right to have. it make me think about what has to be going through a persons mind to think that they have nothing to live for. my feelings towards suicide still havent changed but i think that i am starting to simpathize more with the person. it pains me to think that there are people out there who dont want to live. but it makes me mad at the same time, ashley and sharron wanted to live, they wanted to experence life. why do some people think they have the right to end it all, when so many wish life. well i should stop now before i get on a real rant. i dont like death. its the worst part of getting older.

remember think happy thoughts and be nice. life may be shorter than you think.

care.