I'm in a seriously bad mood right now.
So excuse me while I say this.

Lately I feel like its a chore to have friends. Like everyone is a stupid ball. And i'm like trying to juggle everyone at once. One ball doesn't want me to hang out with another. But I do anyways and lie about it. Trying to figure out feelings about one ball, fight feelings about another, ignore most of them.


So far i've been doing really good. Keeping it to myself. Juggling them all around. But it always happens. Something will happen. Someone will fuck up. Probably me.


I'm in a really bad mood.