Valentines day , SMALENTINES DAY

One time, I broke up with one of my boyfriends or they broke up with me, and Holly called and all was all upset. So Holly said she'd go for a walk with me around the block, since we lived close together. And i was walking and telling her all this shit. And then a junebug landed on her arm, and she freaked out and went home. It wasn't very funny at the time, but its hilarious now.

This woman walks in the store in a tight pair of hip hugger jeans and huge fur coat. She's got these boots on with the huge spiked heal and a pointy toe. You can tell that she came from money. All sorts of women like that come here. Always well kept with many rings (too many), an expensive coat, probably a fur headband or something on the older ones. Snobby women, who never work, probably never worked a day in their lives. They probably sleep in, and have bridge games with their other rich friends. They probably volunteer alot, give some of their money to a charity so they look kind and generous, and just a real good person. I think i want to be one of these women, and at the same time I really don't. Of course all girls dream of marrying a rich guy and just living comfortably. I mean you have to do all the housework and shit anyways, so you might as well not have 2 full time jobs. At the same time though, like I hope to god i dont' go through years of schooling and student debts just to marry some guy and look after children.

I hope I don't have children. Or maybe like 1 late in life or something. I mean, if you are really in love with the person you marry, children will just fuck everything up. Take all your time and money. I'd rather get married (around 27-30) and then spend like years with my husband, both working and making money and going on trips and renovating the house and stuff. Kids will just make you into a mother. But at the same time, wouldn't that be fucked as hell to have a baby in your body?

I could probably make a lot of money being serragate mother or something.

Meh, ya know. I just have this feeling over me. Things just aren't right. And i don't mean to be mean about it. But what can you do when you know its not right and you are doing it anyways. How can you smile everytime without taking it out on someone.


I have my mp3 player at work. And its rocking. I've got bane, bush, smashing pumpkins, tegan and sara, smashing pumpkins again, rage agasints the machine, oasis, and moist.

I work 5 days in a row. GAG. Fuck i don't really have much to say. Just weird things I think about. Stupid life. Stupid people. Stoopid.


Please don't go I love you so.