Sarah i do agree with you compleetly
nice post

well that was quite a night on saturday. talk about DRUNK. i fell off of reds bed when i got home.

i am having a laid back night just some laundry and some joe millionair. this week will be hard cause i am broke and my next check has to go to rent. today at work my boss was real nice to me and said alot of reall good things about me. i had a thought today about how increatiably happy i am. there is nothing that i can complain about. money maybe but that is not really important. i am truly blessed, and i think that i can only see that because of all my past missfortune. i am truly happy to be alive and i aprricate everything that i have, every friend i have and every great thing that has happened to me in the last year. this has been the pest year of my live and i owe it all to certin people. i think you know all who you are. some times i think that i might bust with happyness. and i cant tell you how good that feels. i have never felt like this before. and i do ever want it to go away. i want to run away to a place where time has no effect. and stay 20 forever. its a shame that i cant. i was talking to my grammy today and she is doing sooo much better. and that is great. i dont know what i would do with out her. that thought scares me. so i wont think about it. anyway i dont think that this post makes alot of sence im just letting by brain flow out.
should go now

Alright, I am not directing this to anyone. And i know alot of people who will assume i'm talking about them. I'm not i'm just talking about people in general and stupid ideas.

I just don't understand how anyone at this age can get into a long lasting relationship with one person and think that it is a good thing. To begin, everyone thinks they are in love. I love her. Yeah well, how do you know if you love them? Maybe you would love someone with a better sense of humor, or with a kinder personality, but you can't find them, because why? because you are stuck on your girlfriends couch watching romantic movies. Maybe there is someone out there who makes you laugh a little louder, or makes your heartbreak just by looking at them. How will you find this person with your girlfriend on your arm.


I mean if you really really love the person you are with for god sakes stay with them. But don't stay with someone out of routine. Or because you don't want to hurt their feelings. I dunno. I think that loving someone and being in love is different. I love my family, I love my friends and i love my exboyfriends, but being IN LOVE, like wildly in love is something to take a risk for.


These people are wasting the best times of their lives by being held captive by their significant others. Not all long lasting teenage relationships are like that. But i mean, there is plenty of time to be married. There is plenty of time to be settled down. This is the time to have fun. This is the time to meet people. This is the time to go out with your friends. This is the time to make embarressing stories.


I dunno. I just think that too many people are in long relationships because of routine. You owe it to yourself to find someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. You owe it to yourself to find someone who you honestly love. You owe it to yourself to make the most of these years.


I'm not exactly sure what i am talking about. I just know that you will not find me wasting my time on people who don't deserve it. You will not find me in a bored unhappy relationship because i'm too scared of change. It breaks my heart to see that you haven't found someone who makes you happy.

Oh my Jesus
What a night.
I am being reminded all day long of all the crazy stuff that happened and that I forgot about. Holly my true best friend managed to find Adam Coady who wished me a happy birthday and gave me a big kiss on cheek, AND Marty Claybourne who gave me a hug. Thats what friends are for. I danced with my beautiful mom who looked about 30 when i saw her. She bought me 3 drinks (which sent me over the edge) and me and holly and her danced it up downstairs. The bouncers must have had their hands full with our little crew. Shawn got kicked out and told off a bouncer, Erica told off a bouncer, Sherri told off a bouncer, and me and holly almost got kicked out by a damn boucer. Their was like a 23yr old's birhtday party going on down the hall and half the party went down there to pick up older chicks. Everyone knew it was my birthday too. They said happy birhtday to me at myrons and played a song. Damn too much to remember but all good times. THanks everyone who came you made it very memorable. Now i gotta go and buy a pack of smokes for care with my new found freedom.

Sarah's Lost And Found

There was a ton of stuff left at the hotel. I'm pretty sure I know who most of it belongs to. So claim your things
1. Pair of roots boots (??)
2. Zip up sweater (sherri)
3. Roots sweater ( Holly)
4. Kit bag full of stuff (erica)
5. Lord of the rings cup, Just 1 (Bob)
6. Illes de magedline shot glass (Holly)

I think thats it
Sarah