Love would be less complicated if you could only love one person at a time. Like romantically love. Decisions would be so easily made. There would be no confusion, no sleepless nights. If you only had one person on your mind, and no doubt about it. I think i'm living with an M&M meat shop curse. All the girls at work joke about how everyone starts working there with a man, but it won't last long. It happened to Catherine and Lia, and then soon after me. Chelsea is the only one with man, and we know she's next. The only men in our lives are Frank and Joe. Isn't that pitiful?


Oh a sad girl's fantasy of her unrequinted love returning.


So the end of August is going to horrible. Brian is leaving on the 30th or something. I don't really remember cause I try to forget. We've have been through so much retarded teenage stuff i'm surprised we still talk to each other. I'm going to have go get a hobbie to fill the time I usually spend with him. I know its coming. And i'm scared to see how i'm going react. I'm sure it won't be pretty. I'm going to try to let him go with dignity and try not hang off his legs as he tries to get away. I'm crying right now just thinking about it.

I had a great time in moncton on Wednesday. We went to magic mountain and it was packed. The lines were totally long but well worth the wait. Too many annoying children. I thought waiting in line would give me a nice tan, but I think brian got all the sun for the both of us. Then we went to Arby's. Well first we drove around looking for it. Damn was I excited to have arby's I friggen love it. It was delious and I was tempted to bring home a few burgers for myself and other Arby's lovers but It was way to friggen hot to leave in the car when we went to the mall. The mall was great. Lots of nice stuff. I met Sherri in American Eagle. It was cool cause we didn't buy the same things (like we usuallyd o). Anyways I shopped a bunch, so did my little gap-loving Brian and we headed home. Brian drove home and I took a little nap in the passenger seat. I didn't wake up till we hit P.E.I. It was well worth the money spent. Good times.


I watched the Parade from my doorstep this morning, wrapped up in a blanket and not amused. Every year they sit outside my house from 8-12 blaring 12 different songs at once. They set up port-a-potties on the side of my lawn. That was just weird. Anyways, I guess my parade plan didn't pull through but I got to see it anyways.


p.s- I get alot of questions about who i'm talking about. Most of the time i' m talking about nobody, its just a pet peeve I have with the world. Or its me, something I did, and i'm learning my lesson. So its nobody, its everybody, and its me.

It's so amusing to see people fuck themselves over. Haven't you learned? If someone is mean to you, after many second chances then fuck them. Sometimes its best just not to talk to someone. "Sorry, we can't talk, I hate you too much, and its impossible to be friends." Sometimes it is impossible to be friends. But thats ok. You've got tons of friends, it won't hurt to lose one. I'm reading this crazy book by Ann Landers, about advice and stuff. Sometimes you have to do things you don't want to do. Put aside your feelings and think with your head. Contrary to popular belief its not best to think with your heart, it'll get broken. Think with your brain. And whatever you do, don't think with your penis. Get yourself away from bad people and bad situations. You won't regret it. Letting yourself get hurt over and over again is such a waste of time. Realize enough is enough, swallow your feelings, and stick it out.


Thats all from me and Ann Landers.

So i'm worried about something. I admit I may have broken a few hearts in my day. Nothing too serious. But just today I was talking to an Ex who said something about the "lecky trap". Now this wouldn't usually bother me except 2 of my previous ex-boyfriends had both talked about the lecky trap. And thats just fucking weird. Its there some sorta of horrible lecky phenomon going on? ARe men like crumbling at my feet at the hand of my wrath?


On a lighter note, i'm going to the beach tomorrow (tues) call me early if you wanna go.

Hello my party people. What is going on. Hot from the mother fucking toaster.

So i'm actually trying to spend a night alone tonight. I never do. Even when i ditch one person so I can be alone I always end up with someone else. I ditched Brian so I could go out with Carolyn and Kyla, and then I ditched them too. So now i'm home alone. And rather enjoying it. My brother left today so i wasted no time in stealing his room. He was sleeping on the couch for the last week because he said there were earwigs in his room but I never saw them. And my dad told me he was full of shit too. So today I go down and start moving all his shit out when I notice an earwig. I'm like ok. one earwig. Its cool. I'll trap it, kill it later. So i go to take off his ol stinky sheet and there is like 5 fucking earwigs in the bed. I can stand earwigs on the floor, the walls, fucking everywhere but the god damn bed. EARWIGS CRAWLING ON YOU WHILE YOUR SLEEPING. Holy fuck I hate bugs. Particularly earwigs.


As I was saying earlier, I haven't spent a night alone in a month or two. And now I know why. If your out with friends, your happy. You don't think of much except whats goign on. When you are home alone bored, like I am, I go though all my shit. In my email i've got folders of emails from almost every boyfriend i've ever had. And I decided i should read through some of them. For good ol times. Well, that was a mistake. Most of them are either, just started going lovey dovey emails, or just broke up I hate your guts and I can't say this to your face emails. So i think its about time I deleted them.


I'm not really this depressing. Honest.


I'm going for a walk then. ITs beautiful out. I love outside.