HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its his 23rd today and i hope its a good one. i think that a big fancy dinner will be ready for him when he gets home from work. he deserves it.

so happy b-day baby!!!

and i will miss you this weekend. ( hes going to halifax) i hope you have a kick asss time.


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Hi,
I couldn't help myself. I had to post. I'm so fucking pissed off.

I feel like i'm waiting my life away. I just wish my days away. I waited for Nov to go to Kingston. Then I waited for Xmas for Brian to come home. And I waited for christmas day, and then New Years. And now i'm waiting again for Brian to come home.

But on the brighter side I only have to wait 2 more years. Yeah thats right. FUCKING YEARS. YEARS ARE FUCKING LONG. I like to break it down into months. and really I do see brian for about a week every 2 months. Maybe I should be grateful for that. But i'm not. I'm pissed, and i'm sad, i'm frustrated, and lonely. and annoyed. AND ANGRY. Like fuck you work, Fuck you school. Fuck you money. and cold fucking winters.

So he left probably 3 hours ago. He's probably in the sky somewhere, and yet I do feel relieved. The hardest part is the leaving. The day and a half before he leaves. And I'm sorry that I make him feel bad. I can't help but cry. They just leak out. No matter how hard I try to keep it in, They leak out. And i ask him to say (jokingly , but not). of course he can't.

I am relieved cause now he is gone. And I can try to go back to my life. If you'd like to contact me i'll be free from now until forever.