Fuck you Blogger.

By Jeff

WHEN WILL IT ALL STOP!!!!!!!!!!

another night with my head in my hands.
yet again i am Rocked by the happinings of this thing called life. why? why? is the only thing i want to ask of anything. why do things happen this way. why do things have to keep happinin this way. WHY??
and when will it all be over? with each day i learn something new, today was a big lesson. i just want to say that from this day forward i will try my best to be a nice and loving person. and trreat everyone well cause you never know what this crule world will throw at you next. im so full of sadness that i think that i might bust. was it my fault? am i a bad person? what could i have done? do you all not realize how much i love each and everyone of you. cause i do. i love you all. maybe we dont say that enough. maybe thats all we need? all i can think is that no matter how bad i feel i will never do something so painfull and so hurtfull. cause i will think of all of you first, and foremost. i am soooo afarid of whats next that i cant breath. cause i dont know now much more i can take. im so tired of being a mess and i have become so used to this shit that it kills me. im sad, im mad, im scared and im sooo fucking confused.

i love you, you should have known that. now i dont know what to do?

live and love is what ill try for now.

and to any one who i have trashed on here im more sorry than you will ever know.

love
carolyn leanne mac dougall

Sorry about the madman's rant. Had to get it out of my system.

I am a horrible person. I really am. I mean, I know your thinking. Wha? Sarah? Why do you think your horrible? But as someone has shown me. You may also come to realize that soon. I'm not exactly sure whats going on? It weird how something comes straight out of the blue and slaps you in the face like that. What The Fuck? I know I don't make any sense. But what does right? You think you've got things figured out? You think you know yourself and everyone else too? You don't. You don't know shit. And its all your fault. You know what would be nice for Christmas this year? Contentment. I don't need to be deliriously happy. I just want to be content. Just meet someone nice and live a long and content life. That's what I hope for myself and thats what I hope for all of you. This broken heart feels all but too familiar.

well......
im home. ive been home all night. which is probly a good thing. i got some packing done, since i am oving in like 2 fucking weeks. and oh man i soaked my feet tonight and it rocked. i WAS suppose to go out with jeffy and jon and payne but there was a little confussion and it didn't quite work out. but thats ok i guess. i really wish i was out with them right now though. i love those guys and sarah jayne is there too. rrrrrrrrrrrrrr im mad. i always have such a good time out with the guys and sarah and i never have a bad time together. so im home. but i have been out every night except one since i started back and i will end out having some sorta break down if i kept it up. the wakeups are totaly helping . he he h eh ehe eh ehe ehe he eh eh eh ehe . ahhh so funny. thanks sarah. haha ha ahah ahahahh
well i just laughed my ass off here all by myself and thats sooo funny.

for the reckord im and never ever setting anyone else up for the rest of my life or at least until i get setup cause im fucking sick of me setting everyone up and then am left alone when they dich me. im not excactly sure where that came from but im pissed off about that right now. im pretty sure that i hate everyone who is going out with someone. yea yea i do. so on that note. im going to bed

ha ha ha ha
so full of hate and bitterness
and its so fucking funny
care

im really not that mad
i just feel like being mean

oh i think im going to the main land with stacey for X-mass or maybe hanging out with sarah all night. what ever i do im sure it will be great. even though christmass sucks. ba hum bug

oh and i miss my dad alot. but im still mad

hey im awake and sober now. wow that was quite a post and quite a night. im still at staceys. i think im suposse to look through old pictures tonight with bob. i have to go have a smoke now , so talk to you alll later.

care ( a litle hung over )

FUCK I JUST ROTE LIEK THE FUNNYEST FUCKING DRUNK THINK. IM AT STACEYS AND IM SMASHED AND I THAKED LIKE EVERYONE AND I TOLD ALL MY MYRONS AND NOW ITS GONE. FUCK!!!!!!!! I LIKE TO RE-INDTATE MY LOVE FOR WEED EVEN THOUGH HE IS DRUCK RIGHT NOW AND IM LOVING IT. I WOULD LIEK TO SAY THAT I LOVE BOB AND GOAT AND JEFF AND THATS IT FOR FRIWNDS EXCEPT SHAWN AND JAMES AND STACEY, TINA AND TARA AND WHO EVER ELKST. AND OF SORSE SARAH-JAYNE WHO IS MY LIFE, ANYWHAY I SHOULD GO CAUSE IM WAY TOOOOOOOOOO DRUNK.
SO SO LONG GOOD BYE AND SEE YOU LATER. I LVE YOU ALL EXCEPT THOSE I DONT. YOU GUYS CAN GO TO HELL. SO FUCK YOU ALL EXCEPT THOUSE I HAVEN'T INDECATED. AND CHRIS AND PAYNE AND JAMIE AND MY SISTER. SO HA HA

FUCK YOU ALL
HE HE HE H EH EHEHEHEHHEH
SOOOOOO DRUCK I CANT SEE
CARE. AND
I SHOULD RIGH MY POEMS RIGH NOW CAUSE GOD DAME IT IM SO FUCKING CREATIVE WHEN IM DRUNK
OH YEA CHRIS FROM WORK IS COOL TO CAUSE HE HELPED ME OUD. ADN I THANK HIM FOR IT. YERA THANKS
HA HS \ HJAH SI
SOOOOO FUCKING DRUNK
TOOOO FUCKING DRUCK