yea hey. so it has been a long week but everything seems to have settled down now and i think that it is all over. ah verry nice. i had a awsome coupple of times out in the past bit, just shitty things have happened after. but all in all good times. my dad called out of the blue today. it was nice to chat. i think that it is impossible for sarah and i to have a bad time at the bar. i am like not even going to go out while she is away cause like its not worth it. but you all know ill be out it just wont be the same. oh im trying to stay calm about this whole you leaving sare. but its hard, i just dont know what im going to do without you. it will just be care, air and sherr and thats just not right. you will be well missed even though you wont be gone for long. i love you my "little friend" Sarah-Jayne.
anyway enough sappy shit.
and remember LET ER RIP.

I am such a big freakin weiner.


I have to write this autobiographical essay to apply for occupational therapy at dalhousie. One of the questions was about your experiances with physical and occupational therapy and the only one I can think of is my poppy.

so I just wrote like a page about my poppy and how he was sick and how we tried to help him get better etc. And I balled the whole time. And I still am. I miss my poppy so much. He was the only/best grandfather I've ever had. He was so funny. And nice and great and I went to the hospital to see him almost every since day for like 3 years. And then on New years eve, he was wondering where I was and I didn't wanna go to the hospital that day. And then he died. THe only freaking day I didn't go see him, he died.

And I kissed him at his funeral. He was dead and I kissed him. And thats weird and like really sad at the same time.

Anyways he is the only one in my family I really give a shit about. After that I stopped going to family functions and shit. My brother did too. I mean I still love my nanny and stuff. But everything went downhill after poppy.

I don't let go of emotional pain very easily. Its funny how it can work its way out of you everyone in a while.

Why does this not work?

So.

Why do I always start a post like that?

Anyways. So its Monday. And the plan is to leave for Kingston on Saturday. Possibly. My first plan is to go with my sister's friend (a trucker) who will take me to kingston FOR FREE. Woo. And although I am 100% positive he isn't a mean rapist trucker or something, I am naturally a little uneasy. And so I tell my parents that i am leaving Saturday (they never believe i'll do something until i've done it). My dad doesn't want me to go via 18 wheeler, so I think he may pay for a bus ticket for me. Either way, I get there, and it doesn't cost me anything.

So i'll be staying with a friend, who is a BOY, when I get there. DUNDUN DUNNNN. Oh so scandalous. So time for everyone to pass judgement on me.

So i'm only staying for a few weeks, max being 3 weeks. Then april 5th, i'm off to maui till the 19th. with my MOM. DUNDUNDUN.

Anyways I anticipate muuucho fun. If anyone is dyingggggg to see me before I leave gimme a call. Unless you are just a retarded aquantance, then in that case i'll probably ditch you for some real friends.

Right.

Hey CAROLYN! Thanks for deleting the post Tuna wrote about me being hot. Things like that don't happen very often. and now i've lost the proof.

But all is forgiven because you are the biggest party animal I have ever met.

Carolyn sherri, erica rachel Leah and I decided to do a little drinking at Cares last night. Just for shits and giggles. You know. So we are sitting around, getting pretty drunk and a little rambunciousn (wrong spelling but the appropriate word). So we decide to head down to Melons. Get in free and dance for a 1/2 hour or so. I don't think we expected to be there for the full 2 hours. Nor did we expect carolyn, to shoot 4 shots of Crown Royal (assisted by James) to the Lime in da coconut song minutes before we left. But it was awesome. I was like tired as hell on the dance floor and I was like, lets go sit down, and the song would transition to another one, of course one that carolyn LOVED, and she'd get her 89th wind. Seriously. There is nothing like having a friend who is a party animal. I have never heard carolyn utter the words, "ya know guys, i don't feel like drinking, i'm kinda tired, just go without me".

If i was with anyone else i would have had a bad time. But oh, never with Carolyn. If we are have a bad time at the bars, we just take off and go dance in the middle of all the snobs who think they're hot. And ya know, just flail. Flail like you''ve never done before. Carolyn is more creative. But flailing is key.

Anyways enough about our awesomeness.

Let er RIP!@!!

drunk is sometimes not that fun